NOTHING ELSE TO GIVE

I have given you my heart....
I have given you my soul....
I have given you the truth....
in everything I've told....
I have given you my love....
I have expressed my pain....
but my undying loyalty still remains....
I have given you memories....
I have given my tears....
I have given you my touch....
I hope it's not forgotten through the years....
I have given you my breath....
I have given you my being....
I have given you my life....
and my dreams of believing....
I have given into my weakness....
I have given my all to you....
I have given up on sanity....
and the painful nights I've been through....
I have nothing else to give....
even you can't hold my heart....
because there are too many pieces....
to hold from it being torn apart....

I have nothing else to give, but a big FUCK YOU!.



Nevermind even my fuck yous are too valuable to me.

WET DREAM

Wet....Dream

Written By :JodieLeigh DeWitt
©copyright 2007

Walking along the beachside in the wet sand, feeling it massaging between my bare toes with every step I take.

The waves every so often rushing up over my feet and wrapping around my ankles as though in a teasing manner, wanting to take me back into the beautiful depths of the ocean.Listening to the wind whisper in my ear as it's stroking my hair, only I can't make out what it's saying to me, only because I am in Ahh by the heat reflecting off the sun that is now starting to set.

I sit myself down facing the deep blue ocean and the beautiful orange and yellow with a hint of red sunset, wearing only but a white wrap around my wiast with a white tank top showing a glimpse of my belly buttom with wearing nothing underneath either one. I stretch my legs out before me leaving one bent. Leaning back resting on my hands, I tilt my head back and close my eyes, taking in the heat from the sun, the whispers in my ear, the caressing of the wind in my hair, the drops of the water on my face that escapes fromt the waves that are now moving up cradling my legs barely teasing my inner thighs.

The wind is now starting to pick up and the water is now coming up, wrapping around my body groping my ass as it returns back into the ocean. My white clothes are nowo dampened and wet.My nipples growing harder with every brush of wind, seeing the shape of my breast through my top that is now pressed against them from the wetness.

I noticed, with my eyes still closed, the sun is setting more and more, although I still feel the heat bouncing off my body. For a slight moment I was startled by the sudden darknes that has filled my eyes that are still shut. Wondering if maybe I had been covered by a cloud or maybe I was to into the moment that time has past more then I imagined. At that time and curiosity, I opened my eyes only to see your shadow, your siloette standing over me gazing down at my body, wearing only tight fitted, faded jeans and a thin button up shirt, only unbuttoned, flowing freely with the wind exposing nicely tanned body. Still gazing up at you, paralized by your long dark hair, dark deep eyes and the shape of your lucious lips.

Now the sun has dissapeared behind the glimmery ocean and the moonlight sky is reflecting off the water, just enough light to see you still gazing down at me. As you start to kneel to me in the sand. Neither one of us breaking our stare as though we are trying to search one anothers soul. No words are spoken between us, only the feeling and desire for passion that has locked us together.

Still not unlocking the connection in our eyes, you raise your hand and gently brush away the hair from my face that has gotten away from the flow of the rest. Just with the slight touch of your hand sends a shiver all through my body.With a turn of my head still looking in your eyes I gently brush my lips against your wrist.Your hand moving down to the nap of my neck, you lean in to kiss me so tenderly, while your hand is resting at the nap of my neck you other desides to take another journey and explore the depths of my womenhood.I gasp for a breath as it was taken away briefly by the touch of your hands unexpectantly.when letting out a sigh you still looking at me grin with words not being said.Sliding your hand up to where my wrapped was gathered around my waist, loosen the tie letting it fall to the sand beneath me exposing my body.Moving up to imbrace me with a kiss you lay me down, relaxing my hands for holding myself up so intensily.Still imbraced in a kiss, you move your hands down to my breast where the cloth of my top is still damp from the sprayed water from the waves.Reaching further you grab hold of the bottom of my top and pull it over my head, now exposing my breast.Nipples hardening even more with not only the wind hitting them but with the excitement and feel of your touch.

Breaking the embrace from our lips, only to find you moving down to my neck. Making your way to my ear gently kissing it while tugging at my lobe between your lips, you then whisper somthing in my ear, only again, not making out your words, just like the wind that has been talking to me that evening.With the whispering in my ear, your hands move down to my breast cupping them. Noticing the hardening of my nipples, you take my left nipple in your moistened mouth while still cupping it in your hand.You brush your other hand over my right nipple. With a gasp for breath, I become even more aroused. Sucking and licking on my one nipple, you take the other between your finger and thumb, squeezing it, preparing for your lips to move over to take its turn. Letting out a moan, I arch my back to lift my breast closer to you, wanting to feel every kiss, every lick, every nibble you offer.Uncupping the other breast, while feasting on the other, you then start to move your free hand down my stomach, over my side, sending chills all through me, and down my hip. Moving your way up my still bent leg and back down my inner thigh.

Still feasting on my breast, you take your hand and place it over my hot hungry pussy, feeling the heat that is coming from my pussy, you let out a moan while still having your mouth over my breast, sending a vibe through me. Your dsperation of curiosity could no longer wait. You take your middle finger and insert it in my hot pussy, only to find your finger swimming in the wetness that has been created by the excitement of your arousing me. Again, to your surprise and pleased, you let out another pleaurable moan, only saying you're wanting to encounter it even more.

Pleased with my hot wet pussy, you now place your index finger in my pussy, joining the other. Moving their way in and out of my moisten place of heaven.Dipping into my honey.I am now joining you in this place called heaven.I start to lift my ass up and start swaying my hips and ass to the same motion as you continue to explore my depth of ocean.Breaking from my breast but still haing your fingers in me, you look up at me and I look into your eyes, and without you having to say a word, you are telling me you have to have a taste of my honey.I see the starvation in your eyes as you make you way down my stomach, kissing, brushing your lips against my inner thigh.You take your fingers out long enough to curb your curiosity and taste my juices on your fingers. Stasified and pleased, with a smile, you place them back into my pussy and you move your way down to my clit. licking it with the tip of your tongue, feeling the swelling and tightening around your fingers as your continue to lick. You place your whole mouth over my pussy and begin to suck with your lips while still teasing my clit with your tongue.I arch my back again and let out even a louder more pleasurable moan.Lifting my ass up even more wanting your fingers deeper inside of me and not wanting you to stop licking and sucking.You now are thrusting your fingers deeper and faster inside of me.And my motions are steady with the pace.I am feeling every muscle in my body start to tense up and my legs start to shake.You are thrusting faster and faster. Inserting yet another finger.Omg...The feeling is so pleasing, feeling your fingers fucking my pussy and feasting on it...I can't hold out any longer. You noticed my body tensing up and and pushing myself more to you wanting more and more.You dont stop you only continue faster and deeper. I let out a cry of pleasure and scream to you " Iam going to cum baby".....You say back to me.." come on baby, come for me, let me taste every drop of your honey"...." Oh God, I am cumming". And there, I was cumming, you took out your fingers and placed you mouth over my pussy hole sucking in every drop of my honey. You aren't done, you are wanting to continue to eat...But, now I am reaching for your hard cock while staring in your eyes with great satisfaction.

I sit up while you are still positioned between my legs on your knees. I unbutton you jeans and let down the zipper, releasing your cock from the imprisonment it has been it.I start to stroke it in my hand While looking up at you seeing your expression on your face.Now, giving you a slight grin, I teasing the head of your cock with my moisten tongue, getting a taste of your pre-cum that has escaped.I run my wet tongue around the head of your cock and down the shaft of your making share I cover every inch of it with my wet tongue.You let out a moan with great pleasure then lift me up and turn me around placing my pussy now on your face. Still dripping from cumming before you start to lick it up even now more aggressively. I lean forward and continue licking your cock, now taking it in a little at a time sucking on it. More and more I take it in sucking, while my tongue is in circlular motion still licking the head of your cock. The more you lick my pussy the more I suck. Both of us feeling the pleasure from one another.I begin to rock my hips in circular motion smearing my pussy all over you face, as your lift your hips wanting me more. God,you are hard as rock and taste so great.

You then lift me up and mound me on your cock facing the same way I was, away from you. I slide my pussy down slowly on your cock, feeling every inch of it entering inside me. We both let out another moan. God it feels so damn good.You have your hands on my sides as I start to rock back and forth on your cock , now all the way in me. Starting out slow and building up to a faster pace. My pussy is so wet and throbbing with pleasure. Back and forth, around in circles, up and down...anyway I can take it.I lean back with my long black flowing hair brushing your chest and face. You place your hands around me to feel my breast.God, I want to cum again. Feeling you deep inside me, I feel you even harder as if your couldnt get any harder, my pussy flowing with sweet honey.

You stop me, but only long enough to lean me forward, on my knees now in doggie position.You are now behind me sliding your hard cock inside of me, as youo enter, my eyes feel like they are rolling in the back of my head, Wanting to cum iinstantly from the feel of your cock going inside of me.You start to fuck me harder and harder, Iam now at a loud moan feeling every inch of you inside me. I throw my long hair back, laying beautifully on my back and down the crack of my ass, inviting you to grab on.You take ahold of my hair and gently pull on it as your thrust your cock harder and deeper in me. I take my hand and reach between my legs and start to rub on my clit. God I am so wet...soak and wet and swollen with pleasure.Pulling on my hair and thrustin gyour hard cock in me faster and faster as I finger my clit even faster myself. " fuck baby, I am going to cum again...Oh God..baby, Here I cum again"...."Oh yes...Oh Fuck yes...mmmmmm". Although, you are not stopping, my cumming again is only intensifying the moment. You turn me around and lay me on my back, lifting my legs up over your shoulders, you re-enter my now soaked pussy. Looking into each others eyes and so please with each other, you are fucking me now harder then ever. I grab ahold of my breast and squeeze my nipples with my fingers.Once again, can't take it anymore I tell you again, I am going to cum....only this time, let out a load moan and say you are cumming too...." Oh baby, I am going to cum inside your pussy" " Both of us at that time, become one and cum together...Not done cumming, you take out your cock and continue to cum all over my breast as I start to rub it all over me. Both of us exausted, you lean forward and kiss each nipple and then kiss my lips. I close my eyes and take in everything that has just happened.



Only to open my eyes noticing I had been wet all over from the current coming in, the sun was down and the moon was out. There you were...standing over me, gazing down at my body.

hmmmm.....

I OFTEN WONDER-SADDEN

I often wonder what really goes on inside a persons head or even what it is that makes them think they way they do.


Why it is that people even do the things they do?

May it be because they have no life? Is it possible it's because they are lacking or missing something in their own lives to where they have to try to destroy others?

Let me explain something....

I come from a very fucked up childhood, one in which I am sure a lot of you can NOT relate to or even come close to trying.Without putting it all out there in detail, I KNOW what it is like to feel alone, neglected, abandoned, unloved, abused in many ways,being hurt by others, whether it be someone you least expect or someone you don’t expect at all. Living in almost constant fear, and the feeling of emptiness that no one...NO ONE...should ever have to feel as a child as well as carried into adulthood...Alone, abused, betrayal, hurt by others, the feeling of emptiness and still living in fear.

But I will tell you one thing....It was all of that, that has made me the person I am today. BY CHOICE!

I have taken everything that I have experienced and turned it into a lesson of life. I have learned from it all. What I did with it was up to me to turn the negative into a positive in which, again, it has made me who I am today.

I have turned out pretty damn good, considering the facts...BY CHOICE!

I refuse to be bitter and cold hearted. Instead, I have a heart like no other. It has its wear and tear, but I put it out there for everyone, even those that may not even seem worthy of it. My heart IS an open book. I let everyone in. It’s up to those, whether they want a piece of it or not. Instead of hurting anyone, I help everyone I can, be it a person, child or animal. I DO NOT discriminate.

I would never in any way, shape or form lower my self being to try to hurt or desroy one other. I would never tempt to take from someone what I may not have or may have missing in my own life.

What would I benefit from it? NOTHING!...maybe a conscience.Maybe bad ass KARMA kicking me in the ass. Well, I will tell you this, for those who choose to be the way in which I choose not to be, can have that conscience lying on the shoulders. They can have bad ass karma kicking their ass. Cause I DON"T WANT IT!.. ..." what comes around, goes around"...I choose to continue to be who I am.

Don’t mistaken the person I choose to be for weakness, For weak I am not! Cause you see, my "lesson in life" made me a stronger person. It made me a even better person to be able to take all of the negative and become positive.

So here is a "lesson of life" for those who have choosen not to make changes in their lives for the better, for those that want to hang on to being bitter, hateful, heartless and try to hurt others that are happy because you are not...and have that conscience( or even no conscience)..Karma is real and karma is tough..and she WILL kick you in the ass!! Trust me..you WILL NOT benefit from trying to hurt or destroy anyone. Nothing positive will come of it. IT WILL ONLY HURT YOU IN THE LONG RUN OR SOONER AND COME BACK AND BITE YOU IN THE ASS!.

So my suggestion is, let those alone that are making something for themselves, let those alone that are happy. Let those alone that do have hearts and may be loved by another.

If you so desire to have what they have and be who they are...Then I suggest looking in the mirror and take a long hard look at yourself and make some changes within yourself....and find whatever it is missing in your life and whatever it is you desire, BY NOT HURTING OTHERS to get it. It starts with you turning negative into positive.

P.S ...and if you are a true FRIEND to one...you would only want your friend to be happy no matter what you may feel about something ( and not try to destroy their happiness) Otherwise, you are a FOE and you don’t deserve to have that person as a friend.

ENOUGH SAID.....

PEACE-LOVE-LIGHT
JodieLeigh

The Darkest Hour

There are times when the world is just too much. When fate, fortune and the will of men all turn against us and the deck is simply stacked too deep for us to come out ahead. These are times when a stiff upper lip and a drive to push on are simply not enough. These are times of desperation of hopelessness and isolation. Many turn to their faith hoping for relief, others reflect within searching for answers within themselves when none can be found in the world around them. But no matter where you turn or where you look, you always learn about yourself, and in that small regard, our darkest times can be turned into our most valuable assets. For when we are just going about our lives, we're practically standing still. We aren't changing or making any effort to improve, we are simply drifting. With shifts happening over months and years and little idea where we are going, just a vague idea of where we've been, we learn nothing and grow little. The moments that move us not only change us, but show us the direction that we are heading. For the first times in our lives, we see who we really are, what we are becoming and are given the power to change it. Through the tears, pain and loss comes a sense of opportunity, a chance to rebuild, to improve and to grow. In the long run, we are refined more by our dark times then the times we were just surviving. Our darkest hours are the ones that cast the sharpest contrast on our live, chance us the most and make us who we are. Though that doesn't reduce the sting of those times when we're in the thick of them, nor is it meant to, it means there is always hope, a chance for a brighter future and better days.For no destruction takes place without presenting and opportunity for recreations and no dark times can pass without providing valuable lessons and a chance to become something stronger. So yes, we need to cry our tears and mourn our losses. Yes, we need to deal with the tragedies that have surrounded us and cope the best that we can. But through it all we must remember that the future is being written today, even as history is being destroyed. Finally, we must remember when we emerge from these times, no matter when that is, we'll all be changed people, wiser, stronger and with a new understanding of who we are. We must use that to work toward creating a better future, a greater tomorrow. That's the only way to ensure that what was lost hasn't perished in vain and the only way to paint a picture of our lives defined not by the darkest hours, but by the lessons learned from them.

TRUTH

I often wonder why people make up stories and lies to impress other people. It seems that in order to boost feelings of low self-esteem, insecurity and the need to be "accepted" they will say most anything demean and degrade others in order to make themselves look better. When in fact, the only people who believes any of their woven tales are either people who are much the same way or intimidated by them. Also, these people are obsessive and tend to get emotional distraught, so much so, that it can brong them to the brink of violence when others don't do what they say or believe their stories. They are truly lonely souls with the constant need and addiction to attention and it becomes evident to the rapid making of new friends and the disappearance of those friends with the same speed. Proof of this is disbarraging comments made of former friends when it is their own condition that caused the disolution of ANY "friendship". Trust is an issue of great revelance to them, as it is with anyone, but in their world trust is a open door that begins with lies and half truths that are designed to distort facts and put down others while still trying to keep new "friends" interested and on their "side". While they believe that they are never wrong, which is a sign of being delusional...(We might discuss that disorder in another blog). Be very wary of such individuals...They will act in anyway and often act different or a little "wild" to prove themselves and gain popularity and gain acceptance. They will almost ALWAYS be in a state of denial, and in time, if not treated, Subjects like this end up alone, bitter and angry to the point of hostility.